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My Personal Testimony

on August 30, 2013

I’ve been redeemed from the rubble!

I grew up in a Nazarene church and a religious home with wonderful parents who were “good” people and demonstrated a love for each other and us 3 girls.  We had a large family Bible, but I didn’t have a Bible of my own.  My parents would read us stories from the Bible, but didn’t elaborate, “teaching us” what the Bible said to do and not to do – how to live our lives and crucify our flesh.  Maybe they believed some of the same lies that many parents today believe:  That it’s the churches’ responsibility to teach their children, or that we were just “good kids”.   I’ve recently learned after 26 years of being a mom, that if you’ve missed your children’s heart, you’ve missed it all.

At 12 years old I made a profession of faith at church camp after seeing a movie called, “A Thief in the Night”.  I spent a lot of (17) years living in fear of being left behind and knowing that God, heaven and hell was very real.

At age 29, I was invited to a Christian Concert at Council Road Baptist Church in Bethany, Oklahoma, where Al Denson spoke and sang – as The Lord was speaking to my heart and drawing me to Himself.  Al shared a personal heart wrenching story of losing his best friend (who he’d spent years witnessing to) in an airplane crash.

The airplane had lost one of the twin engines and as the airplane was descending rapidly, Al made one last attempt to lead his friend to Christ, to which he denied for the last time!  His friend died and Al was in a coma for over a month.  When Al recovered from the coma, he wrote a song called “Do You Know This Man?”.  He told the story behind the song, set the stage, then sang it.  Afterwards, he asked the congregation, “If you knew you only had 60 seconds left to live, do you KNOW THAT YOU KNOW, in your heart, that you would go to heaven?”  I DID NOT!  I felt like I had a bowling ball in my throat.  I (literally) RAN to the altar weeping and asking The Lord to save me because I knew I was headed to hell and needed a Saviour!  I got up from that altar feeling as if I’d lost 500 pounds!  That day, HE set my feet on a path, burned a desire DEEP within my heart to know Him and to know truth.  I knew that moment, my life radically changed and I was definitely a new creature!  I was so excited about what had happened to me and IN me!

January 14, 1996 I GAVE MY LIFE to Christ asking Him to be my Lord and Saviour.  I had made a mess of the last 29 years, and HE has spent the next 17 years cleaning me up, teaching me HIS ways, HIS character, HIS voice, HIS grace, HIS love and mercy, HIS long suffering, HIS healing power, and HIS redemptive plan for each one of us.  He is now teaching me things that I was not willing to learn before.  I will never be the same.  Praise The Lord!

On this journey, God has given me a heart for “women whose hearts are hurting” and burdened me to teach the younger girls how to stay on the right path – the way of The Lord, so that they can NEVER say, “no one told me”.  I want to be a voice of truth, making disciples who will carry the torch into the future.  I heard it once said, “Our children are a piece of time, that we will send ahead to a place in time that we will never see.”  So, we must teach and share all that we know with a fervency.  I know it was my past, and God’s spirit, that has given me a passion to share what I know and have learned through His Word and His ways.

In September 2002, I had been invited by a friend to attend a Precept Bible Study at First Southern Baptist in Del City, Oklahoma.  We studied Precept Upon Precept, the book of Deuteronomy!  I began to enjoy and understand God’s Word.  It was not only real to me but precious.  I couldn’t get enough of it!  I would find myself sitting for 2 and 3 hours in the mornings, studying and not wanting to put it away.  The Bible began to come to life for me in a way I’d never seen it.  God’s timing in my life had always been perfect, as it was during this time in my life when I had 2 teenagers leave home (in rebellion) within 6 months of each other.  It felt as if someone was driving a stake through my heart.  Yet it was in those days, I sensed God’s presence and drew near to HIM.

God was teaching me (in Deuteronomy) the blessings of obedience vs. disobedience, to “do just as I commanded, don’t veer to the left and don’t veer to the right, but do just as I commanded”.  God taught me to focus on HIM and do what is right, what HE had called me to do, NOT what my kids desired.  It was one of the most difficult moments in my life as a mother, yet looking back it was one of the most intimate times in my life with The Lord, because I began to see HIS character and trust HIS hand, even when what I was experiencing was disastrous and heartbreaking to lose two children to the world!  He began to show me that HE had a will for them apart from me, and that although I had lost them, HE knew right where they were.

If there is ONE thing I have come to know since my salvation, it is that HE is always there and can be trusted as you walk through the fires!

The Lord has given me this blog to share truth with others, be a light, sharing lessons learned as well as paths to be avoided.  I am grateful to God, for the grace HE has poured upon me.  That grace is there for you as well.  All you have to do is ask for it, surrendering your ways, letting HIM lead your life.

He can do a lot more with what you don’t have, than you can do with what you do have!

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One response to “My Personal Testimony

  1. stacey gillette says:

    Darla
    I enjoyed reading your testimony. You are my inspiration and you have been a light in my path over these last few years and what a GODLY woman you are. I am blessed to have you in my life. I am so proud of what you have done with the kids and the paths that they have taken, just guiding them in the right direction.

    I love you very much

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